One of my co-workers found my blog (with my showing her my blog) and she got hooked on my "Past Relationship" series. She said she felt like she was reading a book, then realized "woah, that's the girl I sit next to at work!" For me, this was a huge compliment.
I've been debating how it is that I want to proceed.
After my "perfect RM", I felt broken. Insecure. Unworthy. I went to a party at the end of my freshman year, at a friends house. This guy named Andrew Butcher arrived with a girl I went to high school with. He and I met eyes, and flirted immediately. When it was time for her to go home, he told her to go ahead, he'd call her the next day.
He left with me.
Hehe.
Get your minds out of the gutter. We were mormons, 19. We ended up riding home in the same back seat together, cuddling and singing Madonna and Depeche Mode songs to the drivers stereo. Andrew and I had a few more dates after that. He took me on my CHEAPEST date ever. But he was a good kisser, so I forgave him.
Soon he left on his mission, and my Sophomore year of college started. Thus started a dry spell. I didn't date much. I was more involved with my roommates, friends, school, etc.
One of my roommates (affectionately known on my blog at "Patsy") set me up with her boyfriends best friend, Dan. Had we not been mormon, he and I would have had a lot, lot more fun. As it stands, we had some naughty fun for a couple of months, and it soon ended. Minimal heartbreak involved here, but more sexual experience than I'd had. Ever. Over 10 years later, I can say "no regrets". It was fun.
At this point, I knew that my future husband, Jer, was interested in me, but I was still so. young. He was even younger. I knew there was something amazing about him.
Here is where I hesitate. I don't want to go into details of this relationship. We were married for 9 years. He's a wonderful human being, and we're linked for life, thanks to our amazing daughters. I am lucky to have such a co-parent. I will say that the influence of the mormon church contributed to this not working out long term. We were married too young, and unaware.
My first relationship after him? That's next.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Today Rocked!
Have you ever had one of those days that you wish you could bottle and re-open whenever you need to be reminded of how good life is?
Today was one of those days. Both professional and personal.
I am living in Joy, at this moment. I'll sleep with a big smile on my face tonight.
Today was one of those days. Both professional and personal.
I am living in Joy, at this moment. I'll sleep with a big smile on my face tonight.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Is it obligatory?
Is it necessary for a single girl, who truly loves Valentines day, who wishes only for happy endings, to make a post on this day?
I digress.
Happy (cough)(cough)(pukealittleinmymouth)(cough) Valentines Day.
Really, for all you couples out there. I'm happy for you. I envy you. I wish I was one of you.
But my heart looks less like this:
And more like this:
Bitter? Actually, no, not really. Not at all. I had a fabulous day at work, and all in all, things are on the up and up for me. I received a surprise valentine that made it hard to keep from smiling all day (plus it got my heart racing a bit), and I got to love on my sweet daughters and spoil them rotten.
I don't agree with this:
I don't want to be a single girl.
The Beatles tell me that All I need is Love. I hope I can find it and be just as sappy as the rest of y'all!
Happy Valentines Day to all of my friends!
THIS day??
I digress.
Happy (cough)(cough)(pukealittleinmymouth)(cough) Valentines Day.
Really, for all you couples out there. I'm happy for you. I envy you. I wish I was one of you.
But my heart looks less like this:
And more like this:
Bitter? Actually, no, not really. Not at all. I had a fabulous day at work, and all in all, things are on the up and up for me. I received a surprise valentine that made it hard to keep from smiling all day (plus it got my heart racing a bit), and I got to love on my sweet daughters and spoil them rotten.
I don't agree with this:
I don't want to be a single girl.
The Beatles tell me that All I need is Love. I hope I can find it and be just as sappy as the rest of y'all!
Happy Valentines Day to all of my friends!
Sunday, February 10, 2008
In the mood to Meme!
I haven't Meme'd in awhile, I stole this from my friend Regina Filangi at Ramblings of a SAHM.
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Not a person, but a book. Called "Christy". My mom and oldest sister read it when my mom was pregnant with me, my sister suggested it and my mom liked the idea.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Nearly a month ago.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? At times. It's been a long, bittersweet story. I had hideous handwriting as a child, so I worked and worked on it. I am finally confident that others can read it.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Either fresh Peppered Turkey or Salami.
5. HAVE YOU ANY CHILDREN? 6 year old twin girls. The best people in the world that I have the privilege of knowing.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Yeah. I make a pretty great friend.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? I try to use it sparingly. I think it's a defense mechanism, for the most part.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? yup.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Yes, and I already have, three times!
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Honey Bunches of Oats.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Do shoes even come with shoelaces anymore? I usually have to zip mine.
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? No, not really.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Spumoni from The Olde Spaghetti Factory. But I'm lactose intolerant, so no more than a few bites for me.
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? The face. Eyes, lips, hair, and teeth.
15. RED OR PINK? Red. Not a pink kinda person at all.
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? My emotions.
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE YOU KNOW TO DO THIS MEME? Nah.
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? faded jeans, black socks.
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Some Peppered Turkey (See #4).
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? E's "Live at the Red Carpet" on TV.
22. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? White, very white.
23. FAVORITE SMELLS? My mom's pot roast. Newborn babies. A newly showered man. (rawwwwr.....)
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU SPOKE TO ON THE PHONE? A person I won't confess to. Before that, one of my BFF's, Erica! :)
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO MADE YOU DO THIS STUPID MEME? Fo' Sho!
26. WHICH SPORT DO YOU ENJOY WATCHING MOST? On TV it's Gymnastics or Ice Skating (yes, I'm a girl! So sue me!). Live, Hockey!
27. HAIR COLOR? Dark Brown
28. EYE COLOR? Indeterminate.
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACT LENSES? No, never will.
30. FAVORITE FOOD? My mom's pot roast. Shrimp from The Oyster Bar. Sushi. Indian. Thai.
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy Endings!
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? "Across The Universe"
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Grey and Silver.
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? I prefer Spring and Fall.
35. HUGS OR KISSES? Depends on who it's from, but really, I love both! :)
36. FAVORITE DESSERT? Fresh Fruit (for real!). But fresh strawberries with whipped cream and angel food cake probably tops it all.
39. WHAT BOOK(S) ARE YOU READING NOW? Not gonna admit to that. Too much scrutiny!
40. WHAT’S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? I don't have a mouse pad.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? I didn't watch TV last night.
42. FAVORITE SOUND? Bono's voice. hehe
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? BEATLES!!!
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Prague, CZ.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Double jointed fingers, toes, knees, and hips. That, plus my memory.
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? LDS Hospital, SLC, UT.
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Not a person, but a book. Called "Christy". My mom and oldest sister read it when my mom was pregnant with me, my sister suggested it and my mom liked the idea.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Nearly a month ago.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? At times. It's been a long, bittersweet story. I had hideous handwriting as a child, so I worked and worked on it. I am finally confident that others can read it.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Either fresh Peppered Turkey or Salami.
5. HAVE YOU ANY CHILDREN? 6 year old twin girls. The best people in the world that I have the privilege of knowing.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Yeah. I make a pretty great friend.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? I try to use it sparingly. I think it's a defense mechanism, for the most part.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? yup.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Yes, and I already have, three times!
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Honey Bunches of Oats.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Do shoes even come with shoelaces anymore? I usually have to zip mine.
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? No, not really.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Spumoni from The Olde Spaghetti Factory. But I'm lactose intolerant, so no more than a few bites for me.
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? The face. Eyes, lips, hair, and teeth.
15. RED OR PINK? Red. Not a pink kinda person at all.
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? My emotions.
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE YOU KNOW TO DO THIS MEME? Nah.
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? faded jeans, black socks.
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Some Peppered Turkey (See #4).
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? E's "Live at the Red Carpet" on TV.
22. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? White, very white.
23. FAVORITE SMELLS? My mom's pot roast. Newborn babies. A newly showered man. (rawwwwr.....)
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU SPOKE TO ON THE PHONE? A person I won't confess to. Before that, one of my BFF's, Erica! :)
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO MADE YOU DO THIS STUPID MEME? Fo' Sho!
26. WHICH SPORT DO YOU ENJOY WATCHING MOST? On TV it's Gymnastics or Ice Skating (yes, I'm a girl! So sue me!). Live, Hockey!
27. HAIR COLOR? Dark Brown
28. EYE COLOR? Indeterminate.
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACT LENSES? No, never will.
30. FAVORITE FOOD? My mom's pot roast. Shrimp from The Oyster Bar. Sushi. Indian. Thai.
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy Endings!
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? "Across The Universe"
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Grey and Silver.
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? I prefer Spring and Fall.
35. HUGS OR KISSES? Depends on who it's from, but really, I love both! :)
36. FAVORITE DESSERT? Fresh Fruit (for real!). But fresh strawberries with whipped cream and angel food cake probably tops it all.
39. WHAT BOOK(S) ARE YOU READING NOW? Not gonna admit to that. Too much scrutiny!
40. WHAT’S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? I don't have a mouse pad.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? I didn't watch TV last night.
42. FAVORITE SOUND? Bono's voice. hehe
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? BEATLES!!!
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Prague, CZ.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Double jointed fingers, toes, knees, and hips. That, plus my memory.
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? LDS Hospital, SLC, UT.
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Words are flowing out Like endless rain into a paper cup
"They slither while they pass, They slip away across the Universe"
~John Lennon and Paul McCartney, Across The Universe
He asked me "Would you like a sack for your trippy movie and trippy music?"
"Yes, please. Perhaps it's trippy, but it's genious" I replied.
I've not kept up on movies like I used to, but I remember reading about the concept of "Across The Universe" a few years ago. A movie set in the 60's, the story being told through Beatles music. All Beatles music, throughout the whole movie. This was going to be a must see for me. Fast forward to last week, I see commercials for the DVD release. I didn't realize this was ever actually made and put into the theaters, let alone being nominated for a Golden Globe and Oscar for best picture!
Taking a risk, yesterday I bought the DVD and soundtrack. I figured it was a safe bet, I love The Beatles, I love movies, how could it not be great?
It was.SO.Great!!! This was one of those movies that really hooked me. I haven't been able to stop thinking about it today. It ranks up there with Moulin Rouge for me, one of my all time favorite movies. It was beautiful and amazing.
Is it trippy? A little, but only in pure Beatles fashion. Plus my man Bono has a great part and sings "I am the Walrus" and "Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds".
The following picture was on the back of the inside of the jewel case that came with the CD's. From what I've been able to find out, it was drawn by Jude. I find it stunning, simple, and full of so much meaning:
~John Lennon and Paul McCartney, Across The Universe
He asked me "Would you like a sack for your trippy movie and trippy music?"
"Yes, please. Perhaps it's trippy, but it's genious" I replied.
I've not kept up on movies like I used to, but I remember reading about the concept of "Across The Universe" a few years ago. A movie set in the 60's, the story being told through Beatles music. All Beatles music, throughout the whole movie. This was going to be a must see for me. Fast forward to last week, I see commercials for the DVD release. I didn't realize this was ever actually made and put into the theaters, let alone being nominated for a Golden Globe and Oscar for best picture!
Taking a risk, yesterday I bought the DVD and soundtrack. I figured it was a safe bet, I love The Beatles, I love movies, how could it not be great?
It was.SO.Great!!! This was one of those movies that really hooked me. I haven't been able to stop thinking about it today. It ranks up there with Moulin Rouge for me, one of my all time favorite movies. It was beautiful and amazing.
Is it trippy? A little, but only in pure Beatles fashion. Plus my man Bono has a great part and sings "I am the Walrus" and "Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds".
The following picture was on the back of the inside of the jewel case that came with the CD's. From what I've been able to find out, it was drawn by Jude. I find it stunning, simple, and full of so much meaning:
Monday, February 04, 2008
Lackluster
I confess, I'm one of those fans. I watch one football game a year, and only then, for the commercials.
Yeah, I'm lame.
This was my favorite commercial this year, on so many levels!!
Yeah, I'm lame.
This was my favorite commercial this year, on so many levels!!
Saturday, February 02, 2008
All I can say is
DAAAAAAAAAAAMN YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
To Punxsutawney Phil.
Stupid little groundhog.
I'm tired of this hideous winter, and am anxiously awaiting the arrival of Spring.
All things new. I can't wait!
To Punxsutawney Phil.
Stupid little groundhog.
I'm tired of this hideous winter, and am anxiously awaiting the arrival of Spring.
All things new. I can't wait!
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