Thursday, October 05, 2006

I heart Dooce

I'm new to this blogging thing... can anyone tell me if I'm allowed to have two posts in one night? Anyone? Awww... to hell with it. I'm going to whether or not it's socially acceptable.

I heart Dooce. I've been reading her Blog for aobut 18 months now, I found it soon after I found the DAMU. I have loved her from the first post I read. In many ways, I feel like we are kindred spirits. She and I have so much in common, we are the same age, graduated the same year, we both loved the TV show Felicity and have dreams about Bono. I want a t-shirt that says "I heart Dooce" across my boobs. Even though I've never met her, she has a place in my heart.

My favorite Dooce posts are her monthly news letters to her daughter. I love reading about her daughter, and I think she's going to grow up and really cherish all of these posts her mother has made about her. This month it was her 32 month news letter. These monthly messagse are always HI-LARIOUS, and tie up in a very sweet, affectionate package that usually manages to bring a few tears to my eyes.

This month she ended her post with talk about depression. Apparently, Dooce is suffering pretty severely right now. As a sister in the agony of depression, she has all of my sympathy. I was diagnosed at age 12. I felt like a freak because it wasn't widely talked about at the time. I had a wonderful childhood filled with tremendous opportunities and a fun, loving family. I turned 12 and wanted to end my life. I spent the next several years on and off different medications. I have not taken anything in nearly 5 years (a few months after my babies were born), and I've been okay. But I know that at any given moment, I could find myself no longer able to cope.

I look at someone like Dooce, and part of me briefly wonders how she could be depressed. Here is a woman who has it all-- she's married to the man of her dreams, she has more intelligence and wit in the way she writes the word "is" than I have in an entire blog, she has a daughter she adores, is very close to her family, and makes a living doing what she loves, not to mention gorgeous. Then I quickly remembered, depression doesn't care about any of that. Many people don't realize that depression is not simply a mental condition, it's a physical condition as well. A person can seemingly have it all, but be torn up on the inside. I hate this ugly disease. I hate how it makes a person feel about themselves.

Now I'm trying to figure out how to end this post without being such a downer. Anyone know where I can get a t-shirt that says "I Heart Dooce" across the boobs?

17 comments:

La said...

I don't heart her, per se, but I am definately going to be her. Just you wait! ;)

La said...

But not until I fucking learn how to spell definItely. Grr... :)

Christy said...

I believe it, La! And when you do, I'll want a t-shirt that says "I heart La"

Anonymous said...

I'd be happy to just write it across your chest with a magic marker :)

Christy said...

Pete- ha! I appreciate the offer, but I don't think it will have the effect that I'm after. :) But I can't blame a guy for tryin'...

Sister Mary Lisa said...

Speaking of Pete, I like his Fiddley Gomme blog just as much as I like Dooce's blog. I really love the way she writes too. I guess it's good that she doesn't allow for comments or else she'd be reading comments all day and wouldn't get any awesome writing done. I wish I could write like those two do.

About the t-shirt.. I bet you could just go and have one printed at the nearest shop that does iron-ons. Do they still have those? Maybe you should e-mail Heather at Dooce and get her to market some on her site, and we'd all buy one.

Christy said...

Hey SML! I agree with you, Pete is a fantastic writer. I'm all blushing that he's gracing my blog with his presence.

I know the stores you're talking about, and I'm not sure if they still exist or not. I would rather have an official Heather sanctioned product though. Perhaps I will email her and make the suggestion. I would be a proud member of the Dooce fan club.

Speaking about comments, on some of her posts, she does allow for comments. I think it depends on what they're about. Some people can be really brutal to her, I don't know how she puts up with it. I think that with anything that has to do with her daughter or health, she turns the comments off. She does get tons of replies though, we're talking hundreds at a time. She says that she actually does sit there and read each one.

Anonymous said...

For one-off shirts, try www.cafepress.com

You can upload your won graphics and order as many or as few shirts as you want.

They are who I use for my F*** Provo and WTF shirts.

Anonymous said...

Oh, I love dooce too, I'd totally go for one of those T-shirts!

I really felt for dooce on her monthly post, too. I've never gone through depression myself, but I have people close to me who have. It really changes a person. It's amazing to see them come out of it when they can, but it's so heartbreaking to see them in it.

-from the ashes

Christy said...

Pete, thank you for the suggestion. I think I will email Dooce first and see if she has any plans to market merchandise, and if not, would she mind if I created a t-shirt for myself and to give as gifts to friends. I would hate to undermine her. And I didn't realize you really created those shirts, they're so cool!! I wish I was brave enough to wear them around town... perhaps those could be our matching t-shirts that we talked about earlier?

From the ashes: HI!!! I'm thrilled that you have read my blog! Have you started yours yet? If I get the okay from Dooce, I'll make a shirt for you too, okay?

Anonymous said...

Hey Christy -

I heart dooce, too - but I think we've covered that.

I hear you on the depression and related medications, too - but I think we've covered that.

How about this - I love reading your blog and today I finally decided to post a comment! We have NOT covered that yet.

Bisou bisou...

Christy said...

Wry, you need to start a Wry Catcher blog. I know you have that other one, but you should have a new one that is completely seperate of that. You know I always love reading what you have to say!

m said...

Maybe I am the only one in the bunch who doesn't heart dooce, but asking her for permission to make the shirt is a great idea!

And about depression, hear hear... People need to understand it's a disease, it's not a choice, and just like cancer or flu, it doesn't discriminate. I have been struggling for so long that sometimes I don't even know if there's a light at the end of the tunnel.

Christy said...

montchan, it's okay if you don't heart Dooce, I'll still like you! :) I'm sorry you've had to struggle with depression as well. It's one of those things I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.

Regina Filangi said...

I remember about 2 years ago or so, before I became disaffected I saw a link to Dooce's blog on Time Magazine's website about blogs you need to visit! I loved it then but lost the internet and kind of forgot about it. Then I see your post about it and was re-introduced to Dooce and now as a disaffected mormon it is even MORE fun to read! Can I be a member of the I heart Dooce fan club too? Please, please, please!!!

Christy said...

Regina Filangi-- abso-fucking-lutely! Any club I'm in, you are more than welcome to join! It's a permanent invitation!

Rob said...

I'm gonna be her too (the Canadian version)!